I am discovering more and more the absolute epic effects of a chill song while I am running.

I listened to this–

Band Of Horses – For Annabelle

–during my run a couple mornings ago. I never used to listen to music while I ran, I felt it was a distraction. I slowly have learned to appreciate the effect music has on more importantly me, while I run, rather than my running. At first I figured that only high energy songs were what I needed to be listening to. Oh how I was wrong.

I can only describe it as spiritual.  It was raining so hard, so so hard. Imagine sitting parked in your car with the windshield wipers flopping as fast as they will go– and still not being able to see through the windshield. It was pouring. I was drenched head to toe in water and mud. I could hear my long, rhythmic breaths in between the pat pat pat pat of my feet under my body. Four steps. Inhale. Four steps. Exhale. In these moments I feel that I am truly connected to life.  Everything means so much. Everything seems to make sense.

Music is my spirituality. I think I have always equated god to spirit, and worship to god was what I thought my spirituality was. Music is when I feel absolutely in touch with everything around me.  Everything makes sense in these moments, and in so many ways in calms everything inside of me.

I think we substitute god into our lives to try and explain our different ways we experience that. Whether it is through nature, music, friends, family, or whatever… it’s easy to say that it is god, when I don’t really believe it is anymore.